The Ring I was tellin you about..

Check out my new bling I got for Christmas!!!

I LOVE IT!

I'm a ring addict... this one is gorgeous :)

:)))

Wish the picture quality was better, it is the shiniest and most expensive ring I have ever seen on my hand- I love bling :)

"Don't be fooled by the rocks that I got, I'm still Jenny from the block".. love this stinkin song!

Ok God, Lesson Learned..

I asked God to take away my pride. And God said "No".
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. And God said "No".
He said her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience. And God said "No".
He said patience is a by-product of tribulations. It isn't granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness. And God said "No".
He said He gives me blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain. And God said "No".
He said suffering draws me apart from worldly cares and brings me closer to Him.

I asked God to make my spirit grow. And God said "No".
He said I must grow on your own. But He will prune me to make me fruitful.

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. And God said "No".
He said He will give me life, that I may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
And God said "Ah, finally you have the idea!"

I just want someone that's afraid to lose me

....

that is all.





-Bri

I love my job!

I love my job.

I'm in a thankful mood today, I think because it's my last day working at Paradise Farms. This last week has been great working there, and I am sad that it is ending.

My Job: I get to be farm manager/caretaker for usually around 1-2 weeks while owners of farms in the area are on vacation. I love it because I am always at a different place, meeting new animals (which they all have different personalities, and I love discovering all of them during my stay), and sometimes I get to stay there and house sit as well. This job is perfect for me because I love traveling, always being on the go, and animals are where my heart is. I love taking care of them, loving on them, and it is so rewarding to know that you are being trusted with someone's operation while they are gone. It is always nice to meet with the people a day or so after and see if everything was left like they wanted and that everyone is still ok.

My other part time work is giving riding lessons. Lately I have not been doing as much of that because of the weather and circumstances, but I love doing that as well. Well, I guess I should say that I love teaching the horse crazy kids that I have as students. They are so much fun because they soak up all the information you give them, and they are eager to take care of the horse as well as learn to ride. I have cut back on my number of students that I have been taking though because I get a little burnt out on it when the kids aren't horse crazy and when their parents are difficult to communicate with on scheduling and payment. If they are horse crazy though, then it's a different story.

Ok, well I am off to take a nap! Mmm I love Christmas break :)

-Bri

New Years weekend.. not so much.

So I was/am planning this roadtrip to Fort Worth at the end of the week.

Trevor lives in Abeline, so it's not too far for him to drive, and we can stay in his grandma's huge house for free (free is good!).

We were planning on Ethan, David, and I going up there and meeting him for New Years weekend (which is also his birthday weekend).

Everything was going good until some stuff happened (parentals aren't happy that I am going with guys), and now I might not be allowed to go.

This sucks.

I am so tired of stuff like this. I want to be able to just pick up and go on a roadtrip with my friends whenever I want to without having to get approval from anyone. I am a good judge of character and can take care of myself. I have my taser and my mace and my Karate training, what more do I need? BLeh.

Ok I am done ranting and venting.

Love,

Briana

Christmas Time is Here

Today has been a surprisingly good day.

My dad and his family left me this weekend, so I have been with other family.

It's been good, but also sad at the same time because I did not get to have my usual Christmas.

The Loot I got for Christmas:

I got... a ring! It's amazing, I'll post a pic of it later.

A bible with my name engraved on it- my first ever 'study ' bible. Favorite gift of the day.

Earings, diamond studs- they are gorgeous

Pajamas, they are awesome. I got 2 pairs of zebra, one camo, and one plaid tommy hillfigure.

Lots of underwear. My family is so weird. I love the ones they picked out though, haha, they have good taste :P

Money- for my mission trip (which is awesome!)

Laptop case for my mammoth laptop

Truffles! I am going to get so fat off of those..

Secrets by Robin Jones Gunn- a favorite series of mine.

Socks! I love socks!

A car travel kit- with everything and anything I'll ever need in it.

Lots of good horse stuff

Silver Dollar City Season passes!!! YAY!!!

A cute hat and gloves set from Dillards- taking them back though because I want a different color

A bible case- taking that back too though, I didn't like the pattern very much.

Next week will be a semi slow week- I am working at a farm nearby, and then next weekend I am going to Fort Worth to spend some much needed time with Trevor. I miss him so much, it really sucks when your best friend lives 8 hours away. It's his birthday this next weekend also (Jan. 2) and he's turning 22, so we are going to party it up in Fort Worth New Years style with him and his cousins and some of his buddies :)

Chris' Birthday is also Jan 2 (weird that both of my best friends b-days are the same day- it is also the day that I tore my ACL which was a huge part of my life). I wish he could come to Fort Worth with me, but he is doing a family Christmas thing on New Years. :(

Ok, well, I guess I'll go to bed- I tried to sleep earlier but I couldn't. I'll try again I guess.

Love,

Bri

Soo...

apparently I sound like an idiot.

Awesome.

Atleast I don't sound like a sheep :)

Question Time!

It's time to play the question game!

1. How does one "get over" somebody?

I've always wondered methodologies on this, so please, somebody enlighten me on this subject.

2. What age gap between a couple is 'appropriate' by societies standards?

3. Why is that age gap there? Why is it not socially acceptable to be with someone who does not fit that criterion?

4. Where in the bible does it back that age gap/society standard up? (I'll answer this one for myself- it does NOT say anything against it in the Bible, so why is it such a big issue for people?!?)

Because I for one am confused on this subject. I would like some answers. Not for any reason, but it has come up in conversation lately and social norms confuse me on why they are right and wrong. That probably doesn't even make any sense to most readers.

Anyways, my day has been not good.

1. I lost my phone. (For good it feels like- I can not find it and I have strip searched my house/barn/cars)

2. I have been having really really bad dreams lately. One's that you don't want to hear about that will haunt me for the rest of my life unless God steps in and does something about it. I think I am going insane.

3. My two best friends are gone this week. Not good when I am going mentally insane and I need them super bad right now.

4. This weekend is Christmas- and that all in itself is thoroughly screwed up. My family is leaving me. Don't ask.

5. This break from school has been more stressful than not. Why does the devil always do this to me?!?!?!?

6. I want to cry.

7. Ok, I think I will go cry. It always helps.

-Bri

My New Dream

I Had a Dream

Once I used to go on long rides in the woods

I would talk to God and ask him who I was supposed to be.

I loved to laugh, cry, and play

Lived life as full as I knew how

Gave it all I had.

I dreamed a dream, I wished upon many stars,

I prayed to God that He would make it all come true.

But suddenly I grew up

I had no choice but to put up my bluff

Put on a brave face and played it strong.

Inside, I was dying

Along with all my life.

I still laughed, cried, and played

But now it was all a game

Nothing was real, it was just shame.

Then God came.

He was and is, and is to come.

He showed me that all was not lost.

Even though I'd been misused and abused,

I was still alive and would not be abused by my God who loved me so.

He would never give up on me.

Never mistreat me.

Would give me strength no matter what.

Even though my dream was lost,

He gave me a new dream that was better than I had ever dreamt.

I now stand proud for my God who gave me life,

He showed me how to live,

How to dream,

How to be who He wants me to be.

Life is not about me.

Neither is my new dream.

The end.

Baby You're a Firework

Come on let your colors burst

Addicted to that song.

Right now watchin ' Survivor finale.

Spent the weekend in Bentonville with Sydney and we had a good time. Needed a break from Fort Smith.. So tired of this small town.

Went Ice Skating in Fayetteville and had a blast. Ate at Mimi's Cafe (my favorite restaurant) and it was de-lish.

Sitting here facebooking and just chilling. Church was good tonight, we had our Christmas special and then we had fellowship meal afterwards.

Ate at an 'Indian Buffet" today and it was disgusting. I have finally found a food that I hate. It is Indian food. Bleh.. The rice pudding almost made me sick. Sorry if you like Indian food, but you can have my share.

Ok, just thought I'd do a quick post. I'm not feeling to great right now, been kinda depressed since I got home. Fort Smith depresses me. I am thinking about moving somewhere, I don't know just where yet though. My friend Sydney is moving to Portugal, I want to move with her. haha.

Ok, see ya.

-Bri

It's not all hunky dory..

Tonight was fun.

Up until we went to Waffle House at midnight. Never again will I go to the one on 71 late at night.

What happened: We were sitting in a booth, me and Chris on one side, Taylor and Mason on the other side, and Caleb pulled up a chair to the booth. We had eaten and were just sitting around talking when these high/drunk/whatever 2 guys came in. There was also a lady with them, but she was not drunk. One guy was younger, I'd say about 27, and the other guy was about 45-50 (really tall and scary looking). They kept cursing and carrying on about only God knows what, and then the scary guy stands up and goes to the bathroom. As he is coming back, he passes Caleb and says "Punk" under his breath.. Caleb didn't hear him though, so he turned around and said "What?" (not in a rude way though). The guy comes up to Caleb and starts saying "I'm going to f-ing slit your throat, you bleepity bleep". He then grabbed Caleb's neck and starts shoving him out of his chair. He let go, and then he leans across me, to Mason, and tries to head but him. Mason just stayed cool, and we were all calm, but he kept saying stuff about slitting their throats and calling them names and asking if we had a problem with him. Then he really got angry, said "I don't like you, you f-ing whatever", and wanted to fight. The lady stepped in and told him to get his a** to the car, and she kept apologizing saying that he usually doesn't get this drunk. He kept trying to come back, and then these nice (but scary also) looking guys came up and pushed him back. He shoved him to the floor, knocking the lady, the other young guy, and the guy who was trying to help us down to the floor. They eventually paid and then left.

I don't know why this has affected me so much tonight. It made me shake and cry. All I could think was "He has a gun, or a knife, and he's going to pull it any second now and take out some pent up drunk anger on us". I was mostly afraid for Mason and Caleb, for some reason he didn't want to have an issue with Chris (thank goodness). It just reminded me how scary people can be when satan gets a hold of them through liquor- or any medium really- to mess with them and others. Evil exists. It's a scary thing. I am glad that I have God on my side and that he will take care of me no matter what- even if I do die. If I die, that would actually be the best thing that could happen to me. Like Paul said, "To live is Christ, to die is gain". Meaning, to live we get to live out Christ, but if we die we get to go to heaven and be with God- which is the ultimate reward.

It also made me very thankful for my parents. My mom has always been super cautious with me. This situation made me realize that maybe she is right- anything can happen, you never know, and we need to take as many precautions as we can.

Thank's God for saving us and protecting us tonight. Thanks for friends who would have protected me and Taylor if anything would have happened. (at least they said that after the fact that they would have- I don't know if those scardey cat boys would have done anything or not haha).

Just got a phone call. Chris is one of the sweetest guys ever. He called to make sure I was ok, and told me to watch Pride and Prejudice to get my mind off of it so I won't have nightmares... sigh. I am blessed with scardy cat awesome guy friends who take care of me- that's nice when I don't have anyone who really fits that job description right now. Even family.. ok we won't get into that here, this is public haha. Even though no one reads this thing. Ok, I'm really leaving this time.

Love,

Bri

Today...

I am sick.

Still sick. Still sleep deprived.

BUT

I had a fabulous time last night :)

And I am fixin' (yes, I am from Arkansas so I can say fixin) to go bowling with Chris!

Don't tell him, but I am going to kick his butt. Last time we went he did awesome though, he got 200 (gag) so I have a tough record to beat.

Last night was so fun though. The bible study group that I go to on Wednesdays (college group) had their Christmas party. It was a tacky sweater party where everyone wore tacky sweaters and we played Dirty Elephant (mix between dirty santa and white elephant).

I ended up with Landon Riley's homemade popsickle ferris wheel thing. It was hillarious.

I am so blessed with awesome Godly friends who keep me laughing when all I want to do is cry and be depressed all of the time.

The horses are as snug as a bug in a rug in their blankets tonight. It's cold out there, they were happy to have them on.

I am going to NWA this weekend to spend time with Sydney- I love her. We are going to watch movies, sleep, church it up, and shop. Oh, and maybe do a little hot tub'in ;) Her appartment complex is soo awesome, they have inground pools/hot tubs everywhere, and all her friends live there so it's fun to hang out with everyone. They also have indoor basketball courts and a gym. Can't wait to live there when I move up there for grad school!

Ok, I'm done rambling, time to go bowling! :)

Love,

Bri

So over Christmas break I PROMISE to write on this blog more. Ok?

Ok, so right now I have officially finished my 3rd semester of college. I have 60something hours finished and 70something more to go. Yipeee.

I think I have all A's this semester so far, but we will see when the final grades come out. I know I have A's in alteast three classes.

I am super loopy right now because I have taken my meds for tonight (I'm sick, and being sick sucks), and they make me dizzy. So I should probably head off to bed. I have to work at a horse farm in the morning, I love my job.

This is probably making no sense. I am so tired. I stayed up till 4 last night finishing a final project that was due at 6 today.

Ok, bed time,

Love,

Bri

I'm so sick and tired of Socrates..

8 pages later...




I'M ALMOST DONE WITH MY STUPID PHILOSOPHY PAPER!!!!
C-HECK YES!











that is all.

Somedays I wish I could be a professional novelist. I am writing a book right now, I have been for years, but sometimes I just want to move off to the beach so I can write for eternity. My inspiration would then, in turn, vanish. So that messes up that plan.

When I write, I write from life experience. I write down all of my stories that God has allowed me to be apart of and experience, and I use them as a reminder of what life is all about: The good and the bad. The funny and the disturbing. The 'hey let's go jump off this rock!' times, and the 'oh maybe that wasn't such a great idea' afteraffects. This is me. This is what's up.

Went to New Orleans this weekend. I don't even know how to describe it in words. God taught me so much through what happened.

First Lesson: When your good friend has a seisure (not sure how to spell that, where is mozilla firefox spellcheck when I need it?!?), PRAY. Pray pray pray. Know that God is in control. Make the best out of every situation. That is what we did this weekend, and it makes me so happy and joyful that everyone was respectful and happy- even though 6 hours in the hospital waiting rooms. I love you BCMer's!!

Second Lesson: MAKE DISCIPLES!! Don't just evangelize, evangelize with your life and then continue on with discipling them! You can't just make Christians and then expect them to do it on their own; show love, get involved in peoples lives, don't care so much about the numbers of 'oh this is how many were saved this weekend', care more about the quallity that you are giving and showing people. Care about them, not just the numbers.

Third Lesson: Don't go to Burbon street on the Saturday night right before Halloween. I got my 'first kiss' (haha not really- but a guy did make out with my window I might add) this night. It was horrific. My spirit has never been so disturbed in all of my life. God worked through this night though, and he protected us through it all. I love how He works.

Fourth Lesson: God is bigger and stronger than anything I can even imagine. When I imagine the biggest and strongest and most powerful He can be, I am so underestimating Him even then. This makes me feel happy and safe.

Fifth Lesson: It's ok to dance it up and have a good time with my friends. That's pretty much all we did in our 12 hour rides too and from AR. I love to dance and sing. This is my personal revelation though this weekend. One of my new favorite songs is "Jenny from the Block" by Jlo. Pretty legit, if I do say so myself.

I am ready to go out and make disciples now. Sooo ready. I have two in mind right now that God has given me to love on them. My prayer this week is that I can adequately show God's love like he would want me to to these people, and whoever else I am around. To be a good influence, and light shinner for God.

Peace out.
-Bri

Tweet tweet...

Uhm. I am addicted to twitter. It's my new favorite social networking tool. Follow me: thelovelylime

Oh, Hi! I haven't been on here in awhile. I have been super duper busy with school and work and socializing (haha) that I have not had time to socialize on the blog. Anyways, here's what's been goin down:

Have been going to school. All A's so far. Just got a grade back from a hard essay test I took in philosophy, and I got a 96!!! God helped me out on that one, which is way cool. That's a fun story I'll have to tell sometime..

Have been riding all the time getting prepared for an arabian show near little rock. I am taking both arabs to this one, and we are going to show hunter. I have a little girl who is going to show Nazwan in the walk trot youth stuff. That will be fun to watch. Another little girl is going to ride him in leadline classes... love it.
Psyche is such a gift from God, well both of them are, but lately Psyche has really bonded with me and has been aiming to please me. It makes me so happy when I go out to the pasture now and he wants to go out and work. That is such a big change from when I first got him a year ago and he hated the world. He is such a different horse now, so happy and lovin' life. We have been going on solo trail rides lately down massard and all through fort chaffee, and he has a blast. No spookyness, and he loves visiting with construction workers on the side of the road. I am taking him on a ride this weekend at sugarloaf mountain. Excited about it :)

Yesterday I got to ride a saddlebred horse... a country pleasure (I think?) horse, which is like riding a frieght train that has no 'slow' pace. What an adrenaline rush that was..

Weekends have been awesome lately. I have some lovely friends, and lately I have been getting to hang out with Chris more, and that is awesome. Usually our schedules and locations clash. I wish he would just move up to Fort Smith! Last weekend he came down on Friday to go to the Greenwood game with me then we went back home and watched movies for awhile.. and then Saturday we went bowling. I am such a bad bowler. Him and the guys get scores in the 140's, and I am lucky if I get in the 100's. Hah.

I am sad the Drive-in is closed down for the winter now. It was so much fun, and now it's getting to be just the right temp to take my blankets and curl up to watch movies outside. Oh well.. it would be fun to rent it for one night for friends only. Hmm...

Selling my car. That's fun. Hopefully getting a Scion TC (baby blue would be awesome.. or black.. or silver with charcoal wheels.. ). I will be happy with whatever though. I'd actually just rather drive my truck, but the gas mileage isn't too nice to me.

I've started playing intramural football. Trying to learn what the rules are and stuff so I don't screw things up for us on the field. We played today and lost pretty bad.. but hey- I learned what rushing means! And that you have to have 5 on the line! Go me!

My good friend Randy got saved and baptised the other day!!! SO HAPPY about this!! We've been prayin for Randy ever since we met him, and the Lord took care of it. Congrats Randy, we love you!!

Wow, I am talking alot tonight... I am really tired but I can't sleep, as usual. I need some sleeping pills. Someone come and serenade me to sleep.....

OH found a new fav. song- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5lO4hEAJHU
:Just the way you are: by Bruno Mars... check it out. Seriously. It will get stuck in your head forever. And ever. I love it.

Also, another good one is She is Love by Parachute.... mmm

Stupid Dave Matthews is getting stuck in my head all the time lately, haunting me with their creepily true lyrics that tick me off....
Arg.

Oh well. Guess I'll shut up now and go read. I trick my eyes into trying to shut, then eventually my brain catches on ;)

Peace out :)
-Bri

"Lead Me to the Cross"

That was the title of a song we all sung last night.. and it has stuck with me ever sense.
God is so cool. Just sayin.

This week and last have been amazing, God has been working in my life and in my friends and it is so cool to feel and watch. The Source last night (our BCM worship night) was so awesome, you could feel Him in the room. The message was great, it really hit home with alot of people, so that was really great to watch. The worship, as usual, was awesome, but this time I think it really was amazing because we had 127 people in the room singing their hearts out to God. What a powerful thing that is to be a part of and hear. So cool.

As for classes, they are all going really well so far. I have Intro Programming, IT Project Tools, Networking Fundamentals, Earth Science, and Philosophy. 18 hours all together. I thought it would be so difficult at first, but it's actually working out well because it gives me something to do all of the time, and I am never not busy.. I am sure I will regret it later, but now I like being busy and it is good for me.

Florida was good, I went the week before class started. Glad I went, had fun with the family. The beach there is so pretty, and the house we stayed at was gorgeous and huge.

Ok, I am done yammering, just thought I needed to update with this. Also, I wrote my first program in Intro Programming tonight and it works and that makes me happy!!! :))

-Bri

Oh happy day

Just returned from our adventure in Fairfield Bay AR. .... ..


Was pretty much amazing. Had the time of my life with my besties.

I am not as depressed as I was in that last post..
I apologize for that. Oops. Oh well, no regrets right?


So we went tubing, kneeboarding, cliff jumping, movie watching, swimming, hot tubing, basketball playing (me and trev beat ethan and archie whoohoo!) and trail hiking this week.

I am so sore that this morning and yesterday I could not move. I have bruises everywhere! But it was oh so worth it!

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I am now chillin and going to get on my to-do list tomorrow before we leave for Florida. Also, trail riding tomorrow with Hannah... that will be fun, I haven't riden a horse in goodness knows when.

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Ok, just thought I'd post a short whatever about my week. It was awesome. Not much else can sum it up like the word "awesome".


Peace out

By the way, I made it through the day

It's so ironic, is it not? This life that I have created for myself.. something I always told myself would happen, but now it is here. I don't want it to be here. I want it to go away. Expecially this feeling...

Feelings.
Feelings are so prinkley. Why did God choose to give us these contrary things that make us go insane?

Don't answer that. I already know the answer. I just don't want there to be an answer sometimes...

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On a more realistic note, today was relatively good. I made it through the day, as my lyrically inclined status states. I am mentally just not where I should be right now though.. I wish it were all butterflies and rainbows. It really did used to be that way. Now I am just... I don't even know if there is a word or phrase that can explain it fully or even partially.


I don't know why I am posting this here. I just opened it and started writing. No one reads this anyways. I guess I can just look back on this to remind myself of how aweful I felt. How this feeling feels...

I almost died today. I almost got hit by lightning. Almost. Almost seems to be a word that is used a lot when talking about me and happenings that involve me. I am the "almost" child. "Almost" successful. "Almost" finished. "Almost" an 'A'. Not quite all there. Never enough. Sometimes I wish I would just totally fail at something, or totally rock at something. Mediocracy is not pleasant. Even when I do succeed at something, it feels as though I don't even deserve that. Why?

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Briana, listen to me. When you re read this, remember this. People suck. I suck. No one is perfect. Even though you have heard that cliche phrase so many times over, it is still true. Doesn't make it right though. Strive for perfection. Please, please do. You will hate yourself if you don't, even though you know you will never perfect it. Just try. This is all I ask of you (myself). Try for it, and do what GOD wants you to do, not anyone else. I know you are scared. I know life is tough. I know relationships fail and let you down, and you let them down too. But still try. It's worth it. Atleast that's what it says in the good book, right?

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Why am I so depressed tonight? I think it's because I watched this stupid movie called "Love Story" and it really stunk. It was about this couple who fell in love and then she died in the end from a blood disease. They didn't even try to cure it. They just accepted that she was dieing and they let her. Sad, is it not...

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What do I want to do? I wish someone would just tell me... oh wait. They already did. Look where that's got me...

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These lyrics are with me today...
"I still hold on to the letters you returned, I swear I've lived and learned... It's 4:03 and I can't sleep...the only thing that I still believe in is you, if you only knew.... If you only knew how many times I counted all the words that went wrong, if you only knew how I refuse to let you go even when you're gone..."

"Tell my mother, tell my father, I've done the best I can. To make them realise, this is my life, I hope they understand... I'm not angry, I'm just saying.. sometimes goodbye is a second chance."

Falling Apart

Barely breathin', with a broken heart, there is healing..

No.


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So the whole trip overall was pretty awesome. Cali the first week, Sedona AZ the second. I really really missed my mom though. Weird, huh? :P

So now I am back home. Nothing is the same.
Everything keeps changing, but I seem to stay the same.
Don't know what to do, it seems like I strive in vain.
I think I need an island where no one knows my name.

Hah I rhymed!

Anywayss....

This week. Garage sale. Yay! Excited about that, and also my friend Julie is coming over to ride with me. We've been wanting to ride together for a long long time, but have never had the time to do it. But her kids are gone on vacation with their grandma, so now she has two weeks to hang out and hopefully ride with me!

Missin' my Sarah friend. I love her, can't wait till we get a place together!! Soon, soon. Don't know where we are going to keep out accumulated 5 horses haha, but hopefully we will find a duplex with land nearby or something we can rent.

Weeding out my friends list right about now. It needed a cleaning (in real life, not on facebook)

When I got back home, it was 2 am, and I had been missing my horses so bad. I went straight out to see them, and they were in their new pasture that we opened up for them. Psyche was the first to see me, and he came running up to me. It was one of my favorite moments I have ever had with horses. He came running, then slowed down to a prance once he reached me. He stood there with his arabian attitude shining through, and he reached down with that arched neck and started sniffing me like I was a long lost friend. Then came Darcy, then Nazwan, and Clusie was still munching on grass- unaffected by it all. I am so blessed, thank you LORD for my horses and the people who made that happen and allowed it.

'Count you're blessings name them one by one...'
I love that song, it was one of my favorites when I was little.

The saddest part of my two weeks away was a phone call I recieved during my stay in Arizona. My mother called, and she told me that my dog had ran away and had been missing for two days. My dog, Abby, is a border collie who has been my best friend for 11 years. I love her to death, and she seriously is/was my best friend. She would go out with me every morning and night to feed and take care of the horses. If Psyche or Darcy acted up, I would give her the signal and she would herd them to where they were supposed to be. She was the best herding dog I've ever seen. When we lived out on the 40 acres, our neighbors had cows. They would always be getting out of their fences and roam around our property. She knew exactly where the property lines where, and when we gave her the whistle, she would go running and chase them perfectly back to their homes. I loved her, and I so hope she comes back. It's rare for her to be gone for more than a day, she ran away because of the thunder storms and because we were not home to let her inside. She always did that. But within a day, she would come moseying back home. This time she did not come home. We have searched all of the roads over and over again for her body, but have not found anything. I am still praying that God will bring her back to me.
Sorry for the rant, I just miss my dog.

You're the God of this City!

There is no one like our God...
There is no one like our God...

I keep repeating this to myself throughout my days.
"Greater things have yet to come, and greater things are yet to be done in this city!", Chris Tomlin couldn't have said it any better in his song "God of this City"

And I so believe this. It also applies to my own life... "Greater things have yet to come, and greater things are yet to be done in my heart and life!"


I am so amazed at what GOD is doing in my heart. Not anyone else. God. My God.

I am so joyful... sometimes when things are at their worst, I just give it up to God, and he gives me peace. I so love peace. It's one of my most favorite emotions, and lately I had rarely been getting it. The reason for that though is because I was not asking for it, and I was not giving myself to Him. I wasn't letting go of the terrible things going on in my life that I can not control.

It's all over now though. For that I am thankful.

The Lord is good, and his mercy reins forever..


As undeserving of a person as they get..
-Bri

It's a Small Small World After All...

I think I last left off at Norco, didn't I? Well after that we went straight to Seal Beach where Doty's Aunt Vicki lives. It is gorgeous here, and their are beaches everywhere. That first night we chilled at the house and then Jamie and Kemery came over for dinner.

Day two in Cali, we went in search for the Ocean. The first beach we came across was a not so nice beach. It was more for volley ball, running and dogs than for water sports. Later we found Huntington beach, which so far is my favorite. It has a large pier that stretches out into the ocean, and the sand and beach is very clean. The waves were really big and fun, but there was a rip tide that day so the lifeguards were yelling at all of the people to get out of the ocean. It was really funny. They didn't listen, and there were helicopters flying over the ocean with rescuers perched on the side to make sure no one drowned.

Day three, to be continued. I am tired, we went to Disneyland today and my brain is fried. Goodnight to all.

Da Kine

As I sit here listening to traffic sounds outside of my window in California, I am reflecting on my trip thus far. So far, I have been blessed by God's faithfulness, and have not had a rough trip. I was dreading the 24+ hour drive, but I was able to sleep through a lot of it, drive some of it (4 hours straight! It's a record!), and the other portion was spent admiring God's creation that I had never seen before. I think it first hit me in New Mexico when the mountains started popping out of the ground how beautiful it really was.

New Mexico was fun, we stopped on the side of the road once to take a picture with lava rock.
Arizona (my favorite state), is where we spent the night. We stopped in chilly Williams right out side of Flagstaff to stay the night. God did a cool thing here. We didn't know where we would be staying, dad just called his agent and said 'book us a room and tell us where we are going, I don't really want to deal with it", and the agent booked us a room in an amazing place. It was a ranch resort, with horses, basketball court, and heated swimming pool and hot tub. Ahh it was a nice surprise. I love the smell of horses in the dry air. Dad went running when he woke up that morning and he said he saw an elk.

Next destination, Norco. Norco stands for 'North Corona' and it is a town in California. I am in love with this town. Wanna know why? Because it is a town with nothing but horse people. The whole town is dedicated to horses. When you come into the town (and it is a large town btw), you do not see sidewalks, but rather horse back riding dirt 'trails' down the roads. The houses there are small, with half acre lots, but in their backyards every one of them had a pasture (a mini pasture) with atleast one horse in it. Pretty amazing. Their shopping centers there are nothing but horse shopping also. This was my favorite part. There was a huge store dedicated to consigned saddles and tack. Ahh Heaven.

biology STINKs

i hate biology. did i mention that?

You don't know me...

I dont know if this will work embedded or not.. I hope it does though. Boston, by Augustana.
Wish I could move to Boston where no one knows my name... just a thought.

Life

Life... is interesting. And a blessing. The last time I posted was in October, and the title of the post is cracking me up.. I think I remember that feeling of extreme mouth pain when my wisdom teeth were coming in. Sooo glad I had them taken out, it was a terrible day when they stuck me with the IV 3 times (for those of you who don't know me, I hate IV's and needles and blood, it makes me have a mental breakdown pretty much..). I survived though, and now I have lovely holes in my mouth : )

Anywayss, it's been awhile. Lots of interesting/not so awesome/ and some awesome things have happened since I last posted.

• Christmas came and went. Was one of the worst Christmas' for me, but I serve an awesome God who helps us through hard times... which is what he did for me.
  
• Acquired a BMW (one of the things on my bucket list that has been completed now :)
• Raced said BMW and thoroughly enjoyed it.
  
• Finished last semester with a nice GPA, which I am super happy about.
• Started a new semester, which is going well except for Biology.. I think I could possibly fail this class. I've never failed any class before. Kinda scares me.
• Joined a workout class- lost 10 pounds and 2 inches so far.
  
• Got 2 new houses to house sit.
  
• I now have 6 riding students, which is the exact number I was wanting.
• Have another job lined up for the summer training horses for someone and getting them ready to show.. pretty excited about this one.
• Spring break came and went by really fast... it was a much needed stress break though.
  
• It snowed so much where I live this winter, which is odd
• I bought a new camera (one of the things on my "bucket list".. get a kick butt camera and learn how to use it and get paid for something you love eventually- still working on that part ;)
• Made new friends
• Lost a few friends
  
• Declared a major (IT Web Development... )
• And the list goes on...

So there is my list. I am going to try and post more on here, I know I say that every time, but now that I am getting back into designing websites and stuff I am sure I will want to try out some html on this blog. Like the new design by the way? :)

Smile,
Bri